Dream 11/24/21

Its been years since I last had a dream of you. We found ourselves at North Point Park Lake, by the light house again. You glided across the sand without leaving footprints, walked up to me, and said, "come with me..." Your arms leaped open to me and I tried to take a step forward. I was stuck every time I tried to step forward. It was like an imaginary force holding me back. My body paralyzed and glued into the ground. I couldn't take a step forward. I couldn't say anything to you. I see you slowly drifting away into the water and I tried to scream for you. I screamed for help because it felt like your death all over again. As you went back into the water, a black hole opened up and you slowly disappeared. The water became blurry as if an "out of focus" on a camera lens.

I woke up.

The last time I had a dream of you, you visited me in my room. You walked up to my bed, touched your nose to mine, smiled, and waved good-bye. Before you walked out my door, you pointed to my drawer and looked to me, so peacefully and calm. I woke up from this dream and realized I hid a picture of us in the top drawer... This was the last time I saw your face. I was just a teen.. We were just teens.

How strange it is to see your face again. To be reminded of the quietness. Of our lake... To bring myself back to a moment in my life I still can't find the words to describe. The spiritual downfall I went through... When I saw you in my dream, I took a big gasp, like I was just punched in the stomach. I choked on my own breath. I didn't expect to see you after all these years. My hope is that after all these years, you are free. That you have moved on and reincarnated. That you have found love, friends, and a new family. That by now you are living a new long life, found a loving partner, and started a family who loves you and reminds you of their unconditional love every day. My hope is that after this dream, may you finally begin your journey forward and everything you missed out on in your past life be brought forth to you in your new life.

Tfl Hmong Shaman