8.15.17

These days I just don't feel like ua neeb. It's been that type of month where everyday just seems exhausting and at the end of each day you just want to dive into a pool or sink into your bed. I typically ua neeb once or twice a week, but lately it's been once every two weeks or so. So, today I just wanted to clean my altar. I swept the dust away, changed the water and made new rice for my altar, as if I was going to ua neeb. We clean it out every time we ua neeb but since it's been a little over a week, just felt the need to clean it, cleanse it, and burn some joss paper or "ghost money." It's hard trying to explain the feeling you get when you don't ua neeb after a week. And although I'm not blaming my neeb for my moodiness, I get moody, I get short tempered, I get clouded and anxious for no reason. I'd even get depressed or sad for no reason.

Point is, sometimes we just don't feel like it. Hmong shamans are pretty much like your average person too. We get exhausted and sometimes we just want to say no and be on vacation...